In 2020 I was in a very dark place. Being diagnosed with MM and related renal failure the previous year, I put my hopes in a SCT to turn the tide. Unfortunately, it completely failed, plus I developed a pseudograph vs host disorder with a lot of suffering. Covid, because of my recent SCT, turned me into a hermit where I did not leave my house, except for medical visits, as I tried a series of traditional chemo therapies, with limited success. My prayers shifted from God save me, to God please end my life. It had been my dream to go to Europe to restore an old stone cottage in retirement. With all my dreams gone up in smoke, I decided to build an "old" stone cottage on our property, to build my strength, give me something to distract from my suffering and self-pity. I am not a builder but have done almost all the work myself. I am halfway through and will start the stonework this summer. Meanwhile, I started a monoclonal antibody two years ago, which put me into stringent remission, now for two years. The cottage saved my life, which I now call "The Healing Hut."